Crystal Ballers

Episode 18 - The Voice & The Vulva

Welcome to Crystal Ballers, a podcast celebrating the audacity to create our future now, with your hosts Britten LaRue (she/her) and Natasha Levinger (she/her).

 

In this episode:

• 2025 is getting Natasha used to the ebbs as well as the flows
• Viewing the "ebbs" like the pullback in a slingshot
• Natasha's expanding capacity for both joy and sadness
• The degree to which you resist anything is the degree to which you resist everything
• How our deepest insecurities infiltrate everything
• Old issues resurfacing when you are particularly stressed
• The brain loves the familiar, even when it hurts
• Patriarch in its death throes (fingers crossed!) trying to use old tools to stay alive
• How do you heal anything without inner child work, Natasha wonders
• Learning to tell discern between protector parts and your true feelings
• Gemini season affecting sleep (at least for Britten)
• Your feelings are just parts of you calling for attention
• Learning to hold space for your own voice and for others'
• The connection between the throat and living a life of integrity
• Voice is integrity is abundance. Resistance is scarcity.
• When you build up inner safety, you create capacity to release resistance
• "The conductor can't lead the orchestra if she's facing the audience."
• The power of speaking things out loud, especially (but not only) to someone else
• The energetic and physical similarities between the vulva and the vocal chords
• Side by side healing of your voice and connection to your erotic nature
• Working with a summoning buddy
• Check out the new logo, and some upcoming video!!
• And more

Plus...

• Time Secrets: Britten's free mini class on what the planets have to teach us about time. Expires June 20!
• Emergence Astrology Year One starts on the solstice (June 20)! Learn more or sign up here.
• Sign up for Coming Home, Natasha's newsletter on substack. Additional content, free healing tools added on the regs for paid subscribers.
• Want to work with Natasha one on one? Book a session or learn more at natashalevinger.com.
• If you like this podcast, please leave a 5-star review and tell your friends about us!

 

Mentioned in this episode:

• Couples Therapy

Crystal Ballers is a weekly podcast hosted by mystics Natasha Levinger and Britten LaRue. Inspired by Pluto’s shift into Aquarius, it’s space to celebrate the audacity to create our Future now. In a world that minimizes the subjective experience, it takes swagger to validate our dreams, desires, and visions in co-creation with the unseen, the unexplainable, and the felt. Britten and Natasha invite listeners into the concept of "skilled feelership" - the practice of honoring and developing one's intuitive abilities as a skill, rather than seeing it as a fixed trait. They explore the reclamation of feminine power, intuitive development, and the collective shift happening in 2025 and beyond. With weekly episodes and monthly guests, Crystal Ballers’ primary goal is to support listeners in staying present to their power no matter what astrological and energetic shifts are present.

Episode 17 - Failing Yields the More Interesting Fruit - with special guest Eliza Swann

Welcome to Crystal Ballers, a podcast celebrating the audacity to create our future now, with your hosts Natasha Levinger (she/her) and Britten LaRue (she/her).

This week, Natasha & Britten are thrilled to welcome special guest, Eliza Swann aka Emerald (she/they).  Eliza is an alchemist, teacher, poet, author of The Anatomy of the Aura and the upcoming 2026 release The Alchemical Imagination, and found of Emerald School, a nonprofit organization dedicated to exploring alchemy as a living, transdisciplinary practice for contemporary artists, thinkers, and seekers.

In this episode:

• Eliza used to run an art school for witches called Golden Dome
• Recently opened Emerald School, which uses Eliza's own teachings, centered around alchemy
• Eliza's definition of alchemy
• Alchemy gets you in touch with the world's soul as a facet of your own soul
• How Eliza recognized when it was time to let go of the Golden Dome
• Alchemy teaches you about balance
• The role of grief in alchemy
• Alchemy is fundamentally about failure
• This year scientists accidentally created gold while trying to replicate the Big Bang
• What can arise while trying to achieve the unachievable
• A redefinition of failure altogether
• How capitalism frames so many endings as failures
• "A good death bring a village together; a bad death tears a village apart."
• Practicing science without tending to soul and spirit will cause harm
• Some products of the combination of scientific inquiry and religious initiation
• Ceremony called The Opening of the Mouth by Gnostic mystic Zosimos
• The lineage of alchemy from ancient Egypt to western chemistry to the mysticism revival to Carl Jung and beyond
• Alchemy is for artists
• Astrology is a sister science of alchemy
• Alchemical heritage is heavy with women, queer, and non-binary practitioners
• The principal deity of European alchemy is non-binary
• Alchemy is a very gender queer art and it is not shy about it
• Current attempts by men to dominate and de-queer the space
• Disrupting the binary is part of the ethic of alchemy
• Eliza is preventing burnout today by gardening and slowing down
• The realization of how deeply unhealthy institutional education can be
• How dragons helped usher Eliza into teaching alchemy
• Leaning into trust, benefit of the doubt, forgiveness as a vital antidote against cruelty
• Poisons and antidotes grow together on the forest floor
• Trusting even when it feels risky
• Eliza's book of sonnets called "The Green Mary"
• Poetry shows you how powerful you are
• Watching her journey to finding her wife through her own poetry
• And more

Plus...

• Spots are open for Awakening, Natasha's one-on-one mentor program.
• Mystics Making Money is Britten's new course and registration is now open! Learn more or sign up here.
• If you like this podcast, please leave a 5-star review and tell your friends about us!

 

Eliza/Emerald's Info:

• Eliza's website: elizaswann.com
• Emerald School website: emerald.school

 

Mentioned in this episode:

• Eliza's appearance on Natasha's other podcast, Getting to Know Woo
• Alchemist Brian Cotnoir
• The Queer Art of Failure by Jack Halberstam
• Poet Alice Notley
• Poet Bernadette Mayer
• Poet Hilda Doolittle

 

Crystal Ballers is a weekly podcast hosted by mystics Natasha Levinger and Britten LaRue. Inspired by Pluto’s shift into Aquarius, it’s space to celebrate the audacity to create our Future now. In a world that minimizes the subjective experience, it takes swagger to validate our dreams, desires, and visions in co-creation with the unseen, the unexplainable, and the felt. Britten and Natasha invite listeners into the concept of "skilled feelership" - the practice of honoring and developing one's intuitive abilities as a skill, rather than seeing it as a fixed trait. They explore the reclamation of feminine power, intuitive development, and the collective shift happening in 2025 and beyond. With weekly episodes and monthly guests, Crystal Ballers’ primary goal is to support listeners in staying present to their power no matter what astrological and energetic shifts are present.

Episode 16 - Being Loud About What You Love

Welcome to Crystal Ballers, a podcast celebrating the audacity to create our future now, with your hosts Britten LaRue and Natasha Levinger.

In this episode:

• Britten is finding a lot of power in the name "Crystal Ballers"
• The theme of 2025 is "Authentic Power"; how are you giving it away and how can you reclaim it.
• How reclaiming your own power shifts your relationship with things that used to be difficult
• The entrance of the Fuck You Left
• Britten has some thoughts about Big Dick Energy
• Natasha is "such a feminine lady" that she even has a hard time feeling masculine energy somatically
• The very patriarchal definition of "being taken care of" in a relationship
• Natasha literally makes money because of dragons
• Family trying to intervene when they see your growth as a mistake
• Plugging your battery into yourself
• The vulnerability of letting the world see your energetic hardon
• How societal masculine/feminine conditioning seeps into everything
• You can be loud about what you love and still be boundaried
• How shadow parts use judgement to lessen your own inner discomfort
• There can also be healthy judgement
• Compassion for all the women who were raised to be damsels
• You can find agency within a lack of agency
• Natasha's experience of hoarding self help to get out of a bad relationship
• Healing can show up in different ways at different times and still be connected
• Britten is literally horny for her own work
• Part of being in abundance is knowing that it ebbs and flows but it doesn't leave
• Natasha deems this episode "a delight."
• And more

Plus...

• Mystics Making Money is Britten's new course and registration is now open! Learn more or sign up here.
• Spots are open for Awakening, Natasha's one-on-one mentor program.
• If you like this podcast, please leave a 5-star review and tell your friends about us!

 

Crystal Ballers is a weekly podcast hosted by mystics Natasha Levinger and Britten LaRue. Inspired by Pluto’s shift into Aquarius, it’s space to celebrate the audacity to create our Future now. In a world that minimizes the subjective experience, it takes swagger to validate our dreams, desires, and visions in co-creation with the unseen, the unexplainable, and the felt. Britten and Natasha invite listeners into the concept of "skilled feelership" - the practice of honoring and developing one's intuitive abilities as a skill, rather than seeing it as a fixed trait. They explore the reclamation of feminine power, intuitive development, and the collective shift happening in 2025 and beyond. With weekly episodes and monthly guests, Crystal Ballers’ primary goal is to support listeners in staying present to their power no matter what astrological and energetic shifts are present.

Episode 15 - Science of the Future Self

Grounding in the Chaos, the next Crystal Ballers workshop, is happening today (May 1) @ 7pm ET!  Sign up here!

Welcome to Crystal Ballers, a podcast celebrating the audacity to create our future now, with your hosts Natasha Levinger and Britten LaRue.

In this episode:

• Time feels like a big mush to Natasha right now
• Dealing with the fear that you can't create
• When you're merged with an inner child part their view feels like the only reality
• The collective energy is beaming a fake fragmentation right now
• Connecting to your future self is so grounding
• Your future self isn't gonna say "What the fuck is wrong with you?"
• Britten dealing with critters in her attic. But literally.
• Raccoons, squirrles, possums, bats; the whole world is up there
• The "both, and" of it all
• The deceptive suddenness of very gradual growth
• Retrospective examination of the time before life milestones
• Gaining tools to fully connect to your future self
• Your heart has a brain.  And so does your gut.  But literally
• Science catching up with woo.
• Natasha both understands and resents getting validation from science
• There are infinite versions of your Future Self
• Intellectual understanding is just a piece of the puzzle, not the whole reality
• Collecting data for your science of the self
• The heart of the future self practice is developing capacity to be with them
• Your future self isn't better than you; they just have wisdom and love for you
• Unlearning the idea that working on yourself can't be fun
• And more

Plus...

• Grounding in the Chaos, the next Crystal Ballers workshop, is happening today (May 1) @ 7pm ET!  Sign up here!
• Learn more about Britten's courses, books, and one-on-one offerings.
• Spots are open for Awakening, Natasha's one-on-one mentor program.
• If you like this podcast, please leave a 5-star review and tell your friends about us!

 

Crystal Ballers is a weekly podcast hosted by mystics Natasha Levinger and Britten LaRue. Inspired by Pluto’s shift into Aquarius, it’s space to celebrate the audacity to create our Future now. In a world that minimizes the subjective experience, it takes swagger to validate our dreams, desires, and visions in co-creation with the unseen, the unexplainable, and the felt. Britten and Natasha invite listeners into the concept of "skilled feelership" - the practice of honoring and developing one's intuitive abilities as a skill, rather than seeing it as a fixed trait. They explore the reclamation of feminine power, intuitive development, and the collective shift happening in 2025 and beyond. With weekly episodes and monthly guests, Crystal Ballers’ primary goal is to support listeners in staying present to their power no matter what astrological and energetic shifts are present.

Episode 14 - Grounding in the Chaos

Welcome to Crystal Ballers, a podcast celebrating the audacity to create our future now, with your hosts Britten LaRue and Natasha Levinger.

In this episode:

• Britten has been sick this week
• Fighting a sense of being pulled backward
• Remaining aware of the positives during difficult times, without spiritually bypassing
• Judging yourself when you're not meeting your "normal" capacity
• How judgement can keep you from grounding
• How Britten & Natasha experience relational healing by doing the podcast together
• Natasha's relationship with ChatGPT and ADD
• The very different ways Natasha and Britten experience grounding in their bodies
• The invitation being offered now to try seeing what it feels like to sit with what makes you uncomfortable
• Large swings from "things are great" to "TOTAL CHAOS!" seem to be the energy of 2025
• The importance of telling your body you're in the present
• Your soul can be at a different pace than your body
• Making sure you connect to both your soul and your body
• Shaking your being back into your body
• Chaos isn't always a negative thing
• And more

Plus...

• Grounding in the Chaos, the next Crystal Ballers workshop, is happening Thursday May 1 @ 7pm ET!  Sign up here!
• Natasha's small-group psychic mentorships are open for registration again!  Learn more or sign up here.
• Learn more about Britten's courses, books, and one-on-one offerings.
• If you like this podcast, please leave a 5-star review and tell your friends about us!

 

Crystal Ballers is a weekly podcast hosted by mystics Natasha Levinger and Britten LaRue. Inspired by Pluto’s shift into Aquarius, it’s space to celebrate the audacity to create our Future now. In a world that minimizes the subjective experience, it takes swagger to validate our dreams, desires, and visions in co-creation with the unseen, the unexplainable, and the felt. Britten and Natasha invite listeners into the concept of "skilled feelership" - the practice of honoring and developing one's intuitive abilities as a skill, rather than seeing it as a fixed trait. They explore the reclamation of feminine power, intuitive development, and the collective shift happening in 2025 and beyond. With weekly episodes and monthly guests, Crystal Ballers’ primary goal is to support listeners in staying present to their power no matter what astrological and energetic shifts are present.

Episode 13 - The Compassion of the Paradox

Welcome to Crystal Ballers, a podcast celebrating the audacity to create our future now, with your hosts Britten LaRue and Natasha Levinger.

In this episode:

• Time isn't real.  And also, there's a divot in the time-space continuum.
• The limits we put on time are constructed and can be played with.
• Trying to communicate energetically with animals
• Natasha's cat, Kenny, is just here for the vibes
• Finding it easier to draw energetic boundaries with non-human energies
• The possibilities opened by "choosing to believe"
• Making sure "choosing to believe" validates your experience and isn't gaslighting you
• Britten practicing a hermitage with her emergence astrology students
• The "this side" and "that side" of astrology
• Astrology isn't about us, it's about how the universe expresses itself
• "All of the energy noticing each other."
• The ways in which identity can limit your growth
• Finding your grounding even while you feel anxious
• You don't have to wait for the "perfect moment" to show up for yourself and others
• Learning that we are so much more than we think we are
• Holding multiple sides of yourself at the same time
• Believing you can no longer be wise or discerning or protective when we are anxious or fearful
• Self doubt and inner knowing can actually be teammates
• And more

Plus...

• Save the Date! Grounding in the Chaos, another Crystal Ballers workshop will be happening May 1 @ 7pm ET.  More info coming soon!
• Natasha's small-group psychic mentorships are open for registration again!  Learn more or sign up here.
• Learn more about Britten's courses, books, and one-on-one offerings.
• If you like this podcast, please leave a 5-star review and tell your friends about us!

 

Crystal Ballers is a weekly podcast hosted by mystics Natasha Levinger and Britten LaRue. Inspired by Pluto’s shift into Aquarius, it’s space to celebrate the audacity to create our Future now. In a world that minimizes the subjective experience, it takes swagger to validate our dreams, desires, and visions in co-creation with the unseen, the unexplainable, and the felt. Britten and Natasha invite listeners into the concept of "skilled feelership" - the practice of honoring and developing one's intuitive abilities as a skill, rather than seeing it as a fixed trait. They explore the reclamation of feminine power, intuitive development, and the collective shift happening in 2025 and beyond. With weekly episodes and monthly guests, Crystal Ballers’ primary goal is to support listeners in staying present to their power no matter what astrological and energetic shifts are present.

Episode 12 - 3D Poetry with PJ from Poster Journal

Welcome to Crystal Ballers, a podcast celebrating the audacity to create our future now, with your hosts Britten LaRue and Natasha Levinger.

This week, Natasha & Britten are excited to welcome special guest, PJ of Poster Journal. Poster Journal is a public diary that doesn't hold back—a bold mix of wit, candor, and all-caps chaos. Its minimalist style is nostalgic yet timeless, speaking from the heart (and sometimes screaming). Launched anonymously in 2020, Poster Journal has evolved into a loud, unfiltered voice in the art world, growing more acidic and unabashed with each passing year. With phrases that are as vulnerable as they are biting, Poster Journal captures the messiness of being human and dares its followers to do the same. Its mission? To say what you're thinking so you don't have to.

In this episode:

• PJ loves any opportuity to talk about himself
• The energy of PJ's prints
• Becoming an audience of your mind
• Ideas are not rare; they are one of the most abundant resources
• PJ's technique of 3-D poetry
• Channeling ideas is vital to their authenticity
• "If these ideas are not helpful to me first, they won't be helpful to anyone else."
• The scary idea of being alone in living at a given frequency
• You might not have these kinds of ideas, but they are available to anyone
• PJ didn't always have access to these ideas
• Living in a channel of desperation, fear, confusion
• Saved by "Letters to a Young Poet"
• Your inner turmoil is the material; your work as an artist is to honestly depict it
• If you're always looking for misery, you're going to create more of it
• Needed to find positivity and affirmations that we're saccharine and paper-thin
• "The trick is to take being unserious very seriously."
• Humor releases pain from everything
• Giving people permission to be a whole person; happy, angry, messy, all of it
• The ego can be very funny and silly
• Started in 2020 when the pandemic took everything away and PJ started learning about stoic philosophy
• "I put on a mask, so I can be myself."
• What is a 12th House Sun sign?
• Giving your inner child an opportunity to be expressed and not denied
• Not wanting to pick any one aspect of your personality to express
• Confronting the fear of seeming like a narcissist when you are proud
• Self-love is the beginning of all love
• PJ talks about having haters
• Using constraints to inspire rather than inhibit
• Realizing you are not your thoughts
• Training yourself out of evaluating while you are creating
• How do you decide which ideas to write down
• The confirmation is in your spine!
• Activating your light codes
• Learning not to ignore your intuition when you hear it
• The value of being a court jester
• A harmless selfishness
• And more

Plus...

• If you like this podcast, please leave a 5-star review and tell your friends about us!
• Learn more about Britten's courses, books, and one-on-one offerings.
• Check out Natasha's book, Healing Your Inner Child, now in its second edition!

 

PJ's Info:

• Website: posterjournal.com
• Instagram: @posterjournal

The books that saved PJ:

• Letters to a Young Poet by Rainer Marie Rilke
• Letters from a Stoic by Seneca
• Damn Good Advice for People With Talent by George Lois
• Meditations by Marcus Aureleus
• The Consolation of Philosophy by Boethius
• Discourses & Selected Writings by Epictetus
• Interaction of Color by Joseph Albers
• The Creative Act by Rick Rubin

 

Crystal Ballers is a weekly podcast hosted by mystics Natasha Levinger and Britten LaRue. Inspired by Pluto’s shift into Aquarius, it’s space to celebrate the audacity to create our Future now. In a world that minimizes the subjective experience, it takes swagger to validate our dreams, desires, and visions in co-creation with the unseen, the unexplainable, and the felt. Britten and Natasha invite listeners into the concept of "skilled feelership" - the practice of honoring and developing one's intuitive abilities as a skill, rather than seeing it as a fixed trait. They explore the reclamation of feminine power, intuitive development, and the collective shift happening in 2025 and beyond. With weekly episodes and monthly guests, Crystal Ballers’ primary goal is to support listeners in staying present to their power no matter what astrological and energetic shifts are present.

Episode 11 - The Paradox of Being Baller

Welcome to Crystal Ballers, a podcast celebrating the audacity to create our future now, with your hosts Britten LaRue and Natasha Levinger.

In this episode:

• Just showing up when you wish you didn't have to is the most baller energy ever
• Mindset is a huge theme this week
• Narcissist family dynamics with the US administration
• The power of disrupting the stories we tell ourselves
• Trying to just be receptive to the universe when you're feeling bad about yourself
• Holding conflicting visions of the "success" of your work
• We make subjective meaning from numbers and metrics but think it is objective
• Quality vs quantity, reach vs impact
• Letting go of caring about results
• A million ways up to show up to the facts in your life
• Everything is meaningful and not everything has to mean something
• Is the meaning you make of things connecting you to expansiveness or contraction?
• Letting go of inauthentic patterns and systems
• Trying to apply objectivity to "data" from your life
• The Meaning Maker & The Seat of Neutrality
• Being afraid to give ourselves spaciousness
• Getting locked in your inner protector
• The power of positive routine as an anchor
• Picking an idealized inner parent
• And more

Plus...

• If you like this podcast, please leave a 5-star review and tell your friends about us!
• Learn more about Britten's courses, books, and one-on-one offerings.
• Check out Natasha's book, Healing Your Inner Child, now in its second edition!

 

Mentioned on the show:

• Amelia Hruby's Off the Grid Podcast.