Crystal Ballers

Episode 21 - What Do You Want to Do With All That Love? - Healing Codependency with Erika Wright

Welcome to Crystal Ballers, a podcast celebrating the audacity to create our future now, with your hosts Britten LaRue (she/her) and Natasha Levinger (she/her).

This week, Britten & Natasha are excited to welcome special guest, codependency counselor Erika Wright

In this episode:

• Natasha may get to see The Format live!
• Natasha's rapid growth working with dragon guides
• Britten is being interviewed for the Dallas Morning News
• Erika is immediately and officially anointed a baller
• How Erika turned the scourge of her life (codependency) into a job she loves
• Independence is the opposite of codependency
• Helping people take the shame and self-deprecation out of codependency recovery
• How can you move forward if shame stops you from seeing the patterns in your life?
• Erika: Libra's are wired for codependency
• What a blessing it is to get to heal from codependency
• Bringing consciousness to parenting to avoid instilling codependency
• How Erika responded to innate codependent tendencies in her own kids
• Learning to sit with sensitivity without assigning stories or blame
• How difficult it can be to not make other people's your own
• Acknowledging psychic capacities with kids
• Instilling energetic autonomy, responsibility, and hygiene in young kids
• Can you help someone with an energetic problem who is not open to energy work
• How the long history of patriarchy's relationship to women impacts modern relationships
• Erika's definition of codependency: The manipulation and control of other people's feeling states, and of your own
• American culture absolutely abhors vulnerability
• "How do I love people and accept them exactly as they are and leave them alone?"
• Sacred reciprocity is the natural antidote to the highly polarized ways of being we all of us experience under capitalism, patriarchy, white supremacy, etc.
• "You and me" not "you or me"
• How lucky we are to live in a time where we now have the tools to dismantle the harmful structures around us
• Loving ourselves more is a thing we all get to heal together
• The behavioral and emotional cues of codependent patterning: guilt, betrayal, resentment, disappointment, expectation, martyrdom, suffering, people-pleasing, conditional and transactional love.
• Erika's work doing individual and group codependency counseling
• The healing power of realizing you are not unique or special in your suffering
• How to begin healing from codependency: stop lying
• The hidden selfishness of codependency
• "Welcome to the Age of Aquarius. Shit's gonna get really fuckin' weird."
• And more

Plus...

• Natasha's new psychic membership, You Are The Oracle, is open for registration! But only until July 21! Sign up by the 15th to get free early bird bonuses. Learn more or sign up here.
• Mystics Making Money, Britten's series of 8 live workshops starts soon. Learn more or sign up here.
• Want to work with Natasha one on one? Book a session or learn more at natashalevinger.com.
• If you like this podcast, please leave a 5-star review and tell your friends about us!

Erika's Info:

• Website: https://www.erikawright.org
• Instagram: @erikawrighthcd

 

Crystal Ballers is a weekly podcast hosted by mystics Natasha Levinger and Britten LaRue. Inspired by Pluto’s shift into Aquarius, it’s space to celebrate the audacity to create our Future now. In a world that minimizes the subjective experience, it takes swagger to validate our dreams, desires, and visions in co-creation with the unseen, the unexplainable, and the felt. Britten and Natasha invite listeners into the concept of "skilled feelership" - the practice of honoring and developing one's intuitive abilities as a skill, rather than seeing it as a fixed trait. They explore the reclamation of feminine power, intuitive development, and the collective shift happening in 2025 and beyond. With weekly episodes and monthly guests, Crystal Ballers’ primary goal is to support listeners in staying present to their power no matter what astrological and energetic shifts are present.

Episode 19 - Connection through Creation - with special guest Will from Creative Minds

Welcome to Crystal Ballers, a podcast celebrating the audacity to create our future now, with your hosts Natasha Levinger (she/her) and Britten LaRue (she/her).

This week, Natasha & Britten are delighted to welcome special guest, Will from Creative Minds to talk all things creativity.

In this episode:

• The creative process as a place for self-discovery
• Finding comfort, solace, refuge in the creative process during difficult times
• Connecting to others through creation
• Using creativity to understand, transmute, and transmit your own experiences
• How creativity can give you space from activated inner child parts
• We live in a world where our experience can remain confined to your own brain
• Great art allows you to get out of your own experience
• Many people struggle to be present with anything
• How aging can help remove obstacles from your space
• The mystical qualities of being delusional
• Connecting to your inspiration well into adulthood
• Recognizing that you can change as an adult
• You can choose to be rigid or you can choose to know yourself
• The seduction of closing of possibilities to gain what feels like stability
• The difficulty in not taking on the limiting beliefs of those you share home with
• What drove Will to begin performing his music
• Deriving nourishment from creative collaboration
• The completely made up coupling of time and money, and how it contributes to living from scarcity
• The importance of listening and receiving without feeling the need to produce
• And more

Plus...

• Registration for Emergence Astrology Year One closes today (June 20)! Learn more or sign up here.
• Sign up for Coming Home, Natasha's newsletter on substack. Additional content, free healing tools added on the regs for paid subscribers.
• Want to work with Natasha one on one? Book a session or learn more at natashalevinger.com.
• If you like this podcast, please leave a 5-star review and tell your friends about us!

Will's Info:

• Creative Minds on YouTube
• Inside Creative Minds on Substack

Mentioned in this episode:

• Hugo by Loyle Carner
• Painter David Speed

 

Crystal Ballers is a weekly podcast hosted by mystics Natasha Levinger and Britten LaRue. Inspired by Pluto’s shift into Aquarius, it’s space to celebrate the audacity to create our Future now. In a world that minimizes the subjective experience, it takes swagger to validate our dreams, desires, and visions in co-creation with the unseen, the unexplainable, and the felt. Britten and Natasha invite listeners into the concept of "skilled feelership" - the practice of honoring and developing one's intuitive abilities as a skill, rather than seeing it as a fixed trait. They explore the reclamation of feminine power, intuitive development, and the collective shift happening in 2025 and beyond. With weekly episodes and monthly guests, Crystal Ballers’ primary goal is to support listeners in staying present to their power no matter what astrological and energetic shifts are present.

Episode 18 - The Voice & The Vulva

Welcome to Crystal Ballers, a podcast celebrating the audacity to create our future now, with your hosts Britten LaRue (she/her) and Natasha Levinger (she/her).

 

In this episode:

• 2025 is getting Natasha used to the ebbs as well as the flows
• Viewing the "ebbs" like the pullback in a slingshot
• Natasha's expanding capacity for both joy and sadness
• The degree to which you resist anything is the degree to which you resist everything
• How our deepest insecurities infiltrate everything
• Old issues resurfacing when you are particularly stressed
• The brain loves the familiar, even when it hurts
• Patriarch in its death throes (fingers crossed!) trying to use old tools to stay alive
• How do you heal anything without inner child work, Natasha wonders
• Learning to tell discern between protector parts and your true feelings
• Gemini season affecting sleep (at least for Britten)
• Your feelings are just parts of you calling for attention
• Learning to hold space for your own voice and for others'
• The connection between the throat and living a life of integrity
• Voice is integrity is abundance. Resistance is scarcity.
• When you build up inner safety, you create capacity to release resistance
• "The conductor can't lead the orchestra if she's facing the audience."
• The power of speaking things out loud, especially (but not only) to someone else
• The energetic and physical similarities between the vulva and the vocal chords
• Side by side healing of your voice and connection to your erotic nature
• Working with a summoning buddy
• Check out the new logo, and some upcoming video!!
• And more

Plus...

• Time Secrets: Britten's free mini class on what the planets have to teach us about time. Expires June 20!
• Emergence Astrology Year One starts on the solstice (June 20)! Learn more or sign up here.
• Sign up for Coming Home, Natasha's newsletter on substack. Additional content, free healing tools added on the regs for paid subscribers.
• Want to work with Natasha one on one? Book a session or learn more at natashalevinger.com.
• If you like this podcast, please leave a 5-star review and tell your friends about us!

 

Mentioned in this episode:

• Couples Therapy

Crystal Ballers is a weekly podcast hosted by mystics Natasha Levinger and Britten LaRue. Inspired by Pluto’s shift into Aquarius, it’s space to celebrate the audacity to create our Future now. In a world that minimizes the subjective experience, it takes swagger to validate our dreams, desires, and visions in co-creation with the unseen, the unexplainable, and the felt. Britten and Natasha invite listeners into the concept of "skilled feelership" - the practice of honoring and developing one's intuitive abilities as a skill, rather than seeing it as a fixed trait. They explore the reclamation of feminine power, intuitive development, and the collective shift happening in 2025 and beyond. With weekly episodes and monthly guests, Crystal Ballers’ primary goal is to support listeners in staying present to their power no matter what astrological and energetic shifts are present.

Episode 17 - Failing Yields the More Interesting Fruit - with special guest Eliza Swann

Welcome to Crystal Ballers, a podcast celebrating the audacity to create our future now, with your hosts Natasha Levinger (she/her) and Britten LaRue (she/her).

This week, Natasha & Britten are thrilled to welcome special guest, Eliza Swann aka Emerald (she/they).  Eliza is an alchemist, teacher, poet, author of The Anatomy of the Aura and the upcoming 2026 release The Alchemical Imagination, and found of Emerald School, a nonprofit organization dedicated to exploring alchemy as a living, transdisciplinary practice for contemporary artists, thinkers, and seekers.

In this episode:

• Eliza used to run an art school for witches called Golden Dome
• Recently opened Emerald School, which uses Eliza's own teachings, centered around alchemy
• Eliza's definition of alchemy
• Alchemy gets you in touch with the world's soul as a facet of your own soul
• How Eliza recognized when it was time to let go of the Golden Dome
• Alchemy teaches you about balance
• The role of grief in alchemy
• Alchemy is fundamentally about failure
• This year scientists accidentally created gold while trying to replicate the Big Bang
• What can arise while trying to achieve the unachievable
• A redefinition of failure altogether
• How capitalism frames so many endings as failures
• "A good death bring a village together; a bad death tears a village apart."
• Practicing science without tending to soul and spirit will cause harm
• Some products of the combination of scientific inquiry and religious initiation
• Ceremony called The Opening of the Mouth by Gnostic mystic Zosimos
• The lineage of alchemy from ancient Egypt to western chemistry to the mysticism revival to Carl Jung and beyond
• Alchemy is for artists
• Astrology is a sister science of alchemy
• Alchemical heritage is heavy with women, queer, and non-binary practitioners
• The principal deity of European alchemy is non-binary
• Alchemy is a very gender queer art and it is not shy about it
• Current attempts by men to dominate and de-queer the space
• Disrupting the binary is part of the ethic of alchemy
• Eliza is preventing burnout today by gardening and slowing down
• The realization of how deeply unhealthy institutional education can be
• How dragons helped usher Eliza into teaching alchemy
• Leaning into trust, benefit of the doubt, forgiveness as a vital antidote against cruelty
• Poisons and antidotes grow together on the forest floor
• Trusting even when it feels risky
• Eliza's book of sonnets called "The Green Mary"
• Poetry shows you how powerful you are
• Watching her journey to finding her wife through her own poetry
• And more

Plus...

• Spots are open for Awakening, Natasha's one-on-one mentor program.
• Mystics Making Money is Britten's new course and registration is now open! Learn more or sign up here.
• If you like this podcast, please leave a 5-star review and tell your friends about us!

 

Eliza/Emerald's Info:

• Eliza's website: elizaswann.com
• Emerald School website: emerald.school

 

Mentioned in this episode:

• Eliza's appearance on Natasha's other podcast, Getting to Know Woo
• Alchemist Brian Cotnoir
• The Queer Art of Failure by Jack Halberstam
• Poet Alice Notley
• Poet Bernadette Mayer
• Poet Hilda Doolittle

 

Crystal Ballers is a weekly podcast hosted by mystics Natasha Levinger and Britten LaRue. Inspired by Pluto’s shift into Aquarius, it’s space to celebrate the audacity to create our Future now. In a world that minimizes the subjective experience, it takes swagger to validate our dreams, desires, and visions in co-creation with the unseen, the unexplainable, and the felt. Britten and Natasha invite listeners into the concept of "skilled feelership" - the practice of honoring and developing one's intuitive abilities as a skill, rather than seeing it as a fixed trait. They explore the reclamation of feminine power, intuitive development, and the collective shift happening in 2025 and beyond. With weekly episodes and monthly guests, Crystal Ballers’ primary goal is to support listeners in staying present to their power no matter what astrological and energetic shifts are present.

Episode 16 - Being Loud About What You Love

Welcome to Crystal Ballers, a podcast celebrating the audacity to create our future now, with your hosts Britten LaRue and Natasha Levinger.

In this episode:

• Britten is finding a lot of power in the name "Crystal Ballers"
• The theme of 2025 is "Authentic Power"; how are you giving it away and how can you reclaim it.
• How reclaiming your own power shifts your relationship with things that used to be difficult
• The entrance of the Fuck You Left
• Britten has some thoughts about Big Dick Energy
• Natasha is "such a feminine lady" that she even has a hard time feeling masculine energy somatically
• The very patriarchal definition of "being taken care of" in a relationship
• Natasha literally makes money because of dragons
• Family trying to intervene when they see your growth as a mistake
• Plugging your battery into yourself
• The vulnerability of letting the world see your energetic hardon
• How societal masculine/feminine conditioning seeps into everything
• You can be loud about what you love and still be boundaried
• How shadow parts use judgement to lessen your own inner discomfort
• There can also be healthy judgement
• Compassion for all the women who were raised to be damsels
• You can find agency within a lack of agency
• Natasha's experience of hoarding self help to get out of a bad relationship
• Healing can show up in different ways at different times and still be connected
• Britten is literally horny for her own work
• Part of being in abundance is knowing that it ebbs and flows but it doesn't leave
• Natasha deems this episode "a delight."
• And more

Plus...

• Mystics Making Money is Britten's new course and registration is now open! Learn more or sign up here.
• Spots are open for Awakening, Natasha's one-on-one mentor program.
• If you like this podcast, please leave a 5-star review and tell your friends about us!

 

Crystal Ballers is a weekly podcast hosted by mystics Natasha Levinger and Britten LaRue. Inspired by Pluto’s shift into Aquarius, it’s space to celebrate the audacity to create our Future now. In a world that minimizes the subjective experience, it takes swagger to validate our dreams, desires, and visions in co-creation with the unseen, the unexplainable, and the felt. Britten and Natasha invite listeners into the concept of "skilled feelership" - the practice of honoring and developing one's intuitive abilities as a skill, rather than seeing it as a fixed trait. They explore the reclamation of feminine power, intuitive development, and the collective shift happening in 2025 and beyond. With weekly episodes and monthly guests, Crystal Ballers’ primary goal is to support listeners in staying present to their power no matter what astrological and energetic shifts are present.

Episode 15 - Science of the Future Self

Grounding in the Chaos, the next Crystal Ballers workshop, is happening today (May 1) @ 7pm ET!  Sign up here!

Welcome to Crystal Ballers, a podcast celebrating the audacity to create our future now, with your hosts Natasha Levinger and Britten LaRue.

In this episode:

• Time feels like a big mush to Natasha right now
• Dealing with the fear that you can't create
• When you're merged with an inner child part their view feels like the only reality
• The collective energy is beaming a fake fragmentation right now
• Connecting to your future self is so grounding
• Your future self isn't gonna say "What the fuck is wrong with you?"
• Britten dealing with critters in her attic. But literally.
• Raccoons, squirrles, possums, bats; the whole world is up there
• The "both, and" of it all
• The deceptive suddenness of very gradual growth
• Retrospective examination of the time before life milestones
• Gaining tools to fully connect to your future self
• Your heart has a brain.  And so does your gut.  But literally
• Science catching up with woo.
• Natasha both understands and resents getting validation from science
• There are infinite versions of your Future Self
• Intellectual understanding is just a piece of the puzzle, not the whole reality
• Collecting data for your science of the self
• The heart of the future self practice is developing capacity to be with them
• Your future self isn't better than you; they just have wisdom and love for you
• Unlearning the idea that working on yourself can't be fun
• And more

Plus...

• Grounding in the Chaos, the next Crystal Ballers workshop, is happening today (May 1) @ 7pm ET!  Sign up here!
• Learn more about Britten's courses, books, and one-on-one offerings.
• Spots are open for Awakening, Natasha's one-on-one mentor program.
• If you like this podcast, please leave a 5-star review and tell your friends about us!

 

Crystal Ballers is a weekly podcast hosted by mystics Natasha Levinger and Britten LaRue. Inspired by Pluto’s shift into Aquarius, it’s space to celebrate the audacity to create our Future now. In a world that minimizes the subjective experience, it takes swagger to validate our dreams, desires, and visions in co-creation with the unseen, the unexplainable, and the felt. Britten and Natasha invite listeners into the concept of "skilled feelership" - the practice of honoring and developing one's intuitive abilities as a skill, rather than seeing it as a fixed trait. They explore the reclamation of feminine power, intuitive development, and the collective shift happening in 2025 and beyond. With weekly episodes and monthly guests, Crystal Ballers’ primary goal is to support listeners in staying present to their power no matter what astrological and energetic shifts are present.

Episode 14 - Grounding in the Chaos

Welcome to Crystal Ballers, a podcast celebrating the audacity to create our future now, with your hosts Britten LaRue and Natasha Levinger.

In this episode:

• Britten has been sick this week
• Fighting a sense of being pulled backward
• Remaining aware of the positives during difficult times, without spiritually bypassing
• Judging yourself when you're not meeting your "normal" capacity
• How judgement can keep you from grounding
• How Britten & Natasha experience relational healing by doing the podcast together
• Natasha's relationship with ChatGPT and ADD
• The very different ways Natasha and Britten experience grounding in their bodies
• The invitation being offered now to try seeing what it feels like to sit with what makes you uncomfortable
• Large swings from "things are great" to "TOTAL CHAOS!" seem to be the energy of 2025
• The importance of telling your body you're in the present
• Your soul can be at a different pace than your body
• Making sure you connect to both your soul and your body
• Shaking your being back into your body
• Chaos isn't always a negative thing
• And more

Plus...

• Grounding in the Chaos, the next Crystal Ballers workshop, is happening Thursday May 1 @ 7pm ET!  Sign up here!
• Natasha's small-group psychic mentorships are open for registration again!  Learn more or sign up here.
• Learn more about Britten's courses, books, and one-on-one offerings.
• If you like this podcast, please leave a 5-star review and tell your friends about us!

 

Crystal Ballers is a weekly podcast hosted by mystics Natasha Levinger and Britten LaRue. Inspired by Pluto’s shift into Aquarius, it’s space to celebrate the audacity to create our Future now. In a world that minimizes the subjective experience, it takes swagger to validate our dreams, desires, and visions in co-creation with the unseen, the unexplainable, and the felt. Britten and Natasha invite listeners into the concept of "skilled feelership" - the practice of honoring and developing one's intuitive abilities as a skill, rather than seeing it as a fixed trait. They explore the reclamation of feminine power, intuitive development, and the collective shift happening in 2025 and beyond. With weekly episodes and monthly guests, Crystal Ballers’ primary goal is to support listeners in staying present to their power no matter what astrological and energetic shifts are present.

Episode 13 - The Compassion of the Paradox

Welcome to Crystal Ballers, a podcast celebrating the audacity to create our future now, with your hosts Britten LaRue and Natasha Levinger.

In this episode:

• Time isn't real.  And also, there's a divot in the time-space continuum.
• The limits we put on time are constructed and can be played with.
• Trying to communicate energetically with animals
• Natasha's cat, Kenny, is just here for the vibes
• Finding it easier to draw energetic boundaries with non-human energies
• The possibilities opened by "choosing to believe"
• Making sure "choosing to believe" validates your experience and isn't gaslighting you
• Britten practicing a hermitage with her emergence astrology students
• The "this side" and "that side" of astrology
• Astrology isn't about us, it's about how the universe expresses itself
• "All of the energy noticing each other."
• The ways in which identity can limit your growth
• Finding your grounding even while you feel anxious
• You don't have to wait for the "perfect moment" to show up for yourself and others
• Learning that we are so much more than we think we are
• Holding multiple sides of yourself at the same time
• Believing you can no longer be wise or discerning or protective when we are anxious or fearful
• Self doubt and inner knowing can actually be teammates
• And more

Plus...

• Save the Date! Grounding in the Chaos, another Crystal Ballers workshop will be happening May 1 @ 7pm ET.  More info coming soon!
• Natasha's small-group psychic mentorships are open for registration again!  Learn more or sign up here.
• Learn more about Britten's courses, books, and one-on-one offerings.
• If you like this podcast, please leave a 5-star review and tell your friends about us!

 

Crystal Ballers is a weekly podcast hosted by mystics Natasha Levinger and Britten LaRue. Inspired by Pluto’s shift into Aquarius, it’s space to celebrate the audacity to create our Future now. In a world that minimizes the subjective experience, it takes swagger to validate our dreams, desires, and visions in co-creation with the unseen, the unexplainable, and the felt. Britten and Natasha invite listeners into the concept of "skilled feelership" - the practice of honoring and developing one's intuitive abilities as a skill, rather than seeing it as a fixed trait. They explore the reclamation of feminine power, intuitive development, and the collective shift happening in 2025 and beyond. With weekly episodes and monthly guests, Crystal Ballers’ primary goal is to support listeners in staying present to their power no matter what astrological and energetic shifts are present.